Man-Made Music, October Edition

Here's the next installment of Man-Made Music. This song was written a few years ago, but I re-recorded it recently. Please feel free to share any thoughts or questions! Lyrics are below. Happy listening!

It falls apart

and it would all go our way

if we'd have done that right, done that different,

but these are my old ways

Something's changed around here;

this old path to nowhere

cuts right down through here

splits us down through here

When the rain comes

It all goes right here

Don't wash on by

Won't you wash me?

It's dark out here, and they

say that hell is cold

well here's the hell in me

here's the hell that I control

So be ashamed of me afraid of me

oh never lose me

This path is broad my path is clear

it's full of lies but lies are marked and clear

When the rain comes

It all goes right here

Don't wash on by

Won't you wash me?

I say that I want peace,

and I hate like this

Please hate me, but don't hate me

because I just want peace

When the rain comes

It all goes right here

Don't wash on by

Won't you wash me?

2 weeks today!

I suppose a little update on our newest addition to the family is in order.  Siri is doing awesome!  She just had a 2 week check-up and all is well!  She is now weighing in at 7 lbs 11 oz!! Here are her weights from birth:

Birth 9/22/09: 7 lbs

9/23/09: 6 lbs 14 oz

9/24/09: 6 lbs 9 oz

9/25/09: 6 lbs 6 oz

9/26/09: 6lbs 9 oz

Two days post hospital discharge 9/28/09: 6 lbs 13 oz

Two week check-up 10/6/09: 7 lbs 11 oz

YAY Siri!  

So anyway, Siri is doing wonderfully!  She is nursing well and sleeping well!  She usually has a 5 hour stretch at night of sleep before waking quietly to eat.  I usually awake to her stirring and rooting.  It's pretty cute!  She is looking bigger everyday!  

Ellie LOVES her so much!  When she sees her she gets very cute and cuddly and says, "baby siri" over and over.  She loves giving her lots of kisses and hugs.  Ellie does, however have moments of defiance towards me.  She is all in all a good girl, but has acted out a few times to get our attention.  I'm just glad she's not taking it out on Siri!  We've also had lots of visitors which can get Ellie a little over excited at times. 

Joey's been quite busy with school and volleyball coaching.  He took off a total of 6 school days which was about 1 1/2wks and had a lot of catch up to do as a result.  Thankfully, we've had lots of help here at home.  My parents were here the week Siri was born and took total care of Ellie while I was in the hospital and Joey stayed overnight with me.  Then they left and Steve and Merrilee came to visit.  Steve spent about 2 days here and Merrilee stayed a full week!  And now my mom is here with me for this week!  We've had lots of help which has made this transition very smooth and easy.  We ALSO received meals for 6 nights last week from friends from church!  I can't tell you how awesome that was!  So thank-you to everyone who has helped us with our new little one, we couldn't have done it without you!

For pictures from the hospital, click here!

Siri is Born!

Siri Ann Torgerson was born on September 22, 2009, at 10:16AM. She was 7 lbs and 20.5 inches. Kim is doing very well, and Siri is great at nursing! We're very happy, to say the least, about our new little girl, and we can't wait to go home from the hospital on Saturday! Thanks for all of your prayers. Here are some pictures:

Make way for Siri Ann!

We officially have only 2 more nights of peaceful sleeping (though really only two of the three of us have been peacefully sleeping lately).  Siri Ann is coming Tuesday (if not sooner) and we couldn't be more excited!  Things are still going well and the c-section is still on the schedule for Tuesday morning at 9:30am.  So weird to think about!  So please pray for us all: my surgery, Siri coming into the world, Ellie adjusting to the new sister in town, Joey attempting to help me, Siri AND Ellie recover and get adjusted, and my parents who are coming into town to watch and take care of Ellie so Joey can take care of me and Siri!  I have already bought Siri and Ellie matching outfits for the trip home and my mom has already gotten Ellie and Siri a few matching things as well! We are definitely excited!

We've got a new double stroller that we've tested out!

And my good friend Sarah (the mother of Gabe) took me as a surprise to a spa to get a "mommy-to-be" Manicure and pedicure and then took me out to lunch and surprised me with lots of friends and a baby shower! I couldn't have been more surprised!  I don't have any pics as I didn't have a camera and was completely surprised, but it was so much fun! Thanks, everyone for coming and for all the gifts and thanks, Sarah for being such a great friend and making these last days more than tolerable! :)

how much longer....really!?

Ok folks, there are 12 more days to go before our lives will be changed dramatically, once again! Now to all of you, I'm sure, 12 days does not seem very long. However to the pregnant women still attempting to carry her 25 lb, 21 mth old, 12 days is VERY long! So now that I am officially 38 wks the prayers have become stronger that I will go into labor a teeny bit earlier than Sept 22nd (though that is still a full week of pregnancy less than I had with Ellie).  

It's getting tough over here.  All of my ligaments are stretching and loosening (as I suppose they should) causing sever discomfort mostly in the lower back/hip area.  Lifting Ellie in and out of her carseat is actually painful (like sharp, stabbing pains....painful)! UGH!  Thankfully, I only have 2 more shifts of work left!  Those 12 hour days are hard to do these days and usually end in me limping to the car, literally limping! 

Ellie has been fairly kind to me I must say.  She understands that I have "owies on my back" and therefore can not hold her, however she seems to take advantage of the fact that I can't run over and physically stop her from doing things she's not supposed to do.  Needless to say, she is learning how to respond to and obey verbal commands.  This makes nap time and bed time extremely important as any amount of awake time over the tolerated amount results in defiance which equals LOTS of frustration for mom.

I do believe this discomfort is necessary however.  Who in their right mind would happily welcome labor and child birth into their lives otherwise?  Or in my case, who would gladly say, "yes, please cut me open while I am awake and rip through my abdominal muscles and pull this baby out!" but a horribly uncomfortable pregnant women?  So now you know where I'm at, ready and willing to be ripped open even knowing the recovery I face.....bring it on!